Since the first of the year my little web design business has been busy busy. Every day something new to work on and something new learned. It’s an exciting time. I have recently suffered from a fear of success. This is a real thing and it sucks. I developed it sometime during my first marriage. I don’t know if it was the husband or some career things that happened, but I have had a hard time staying at one job or sticking to anything for years. I am determined to make this the year that changes all of that. I have been at my job at the paper for 18 months now and doing web design for almost 3 years, but this year is the year that my web design gets moving. There is an opportunity here in town that I am believing for. If you are a prayer – send one up for me will ya?? Thanks a million. I’m off to do some more work, ttyl!
busy, busy…
January 14, 2009 at 5:16 am (Technical Difficulties)
Tags: career, lake havasu city, prayer, today's news-herald, web design, website, work
I am I am I am
January 10, 2009 at 5:20 pm (Technical Difficulties)
I am smart enough to figure this damn program out. I will I will I will figure it out today! Through eyeball levels of frustration I know I can do this. I will not be beat! I just won’t!!!!!! <stomps feet and bangs head on desk>
opportunity’s knocking…
December 31, 2008 at 4:21 am (Technical Difficulties)
Tags: career, christian values, joomla, partnership, web design
So a new opportunity has presented itself. I’m pretty stoked about it. A friend of Don’s from his childhood recently re-connected with him on facebook. He lives in Texas (very close to my hometown) and designs websites. He introduced me to my newest joy/devastation – Joomla (it’s a program to help web designers) I almost gave up designing web sites over this program, but have since figured it out and after talking with him, we both see an opportuinty to help each other build our buisnesses from half way across the country from each other.
I’m excited, can’t wait to get to see how blessed it will be. There is a verse in the Bible that talks about not being yoked with an unbeliever. Basically what it means is that Christians should not partner with unbelievers in things like marriage and business. Christians can and should be friends and interact with non-believers so that opportunities to share thier faith will come up, but they should not enter into contracts, business deals, or marriage with an unbeliever – something about having mutual morals, values, ideals and so on. Turns out that this friend is a Christian and that we share many of the same business principals and work ethic.
Not so fast…
December 16, 2008 at 3:50 am (Technical Difficulties)
Tags: brains, joomla, overcomer, persistence, self-doubt, web design
So Ok, maybe I jumped the gun thinking the program was smarter than me. I am nothing if not persistant and it would send me to the padded room to think I had found something I couldn’t figure out that I really really wanted to know.
So I just kept plugging away, reading forums, begging for help and using the brains I am blessed with and waaahhhlaa! and Eureka! I got it. Now I’m excited.
Strange moment of self-doubt forgetten – thank God. I’m off to play with my new toy and see just how much fun I get to have.
time for a new career
December 14, 2008 at 3:29 am (Technical Difficulties)
Tags: career, cms, dreamweaver, graphic arts, joomla, web site design
I have been wanting to be a web site designer for like 7 years now. I love putting a site together, the creative part – the layout and art and stuff. But to be any good and worth any money I need to learn the more techinical end of it, like how to make e-commerce sites, forms, message boards and all that kind of stuff. I need to learn things like Mysql and perl and php and xml and dhtml and so many other things that I just have no clue about. So while I am looking around for a school that I can dream about going to (because I will probably never actually get to go and even if I did – I am notorious for not finishing anything) anyway…
A friend of Don’s introduced me to this software called joomla, it’s a cms – content managment software. So it’s supposed to be fairly easy to use and learn and it’s been a real lifesaver for him and he makes beautiful sites using it. I got all excited thinking this could be the edge I need to really make web site design into an actual career where people pay me for the work I do. Then I got into trying to figure it out. I haven’t felt so not-smart and out of my element in as long as I can remember. It’s so far over my head it’s laughable. What in the world ever led me to think that because I can put a pretty site together that does some basic button functions, that I could really be a killer web designer?????
What a joke that is. Time to find a different field of work. Big dreams but obviously not big enough brains to go with them.
