the end of a dream

I got a job. I am so excited about it. I will be working in the property management field again. Leasing units at an Active Senior Living community. A manager’s position will be coming up on the property in a month or two and I am believing for that postion / promotion.

The thing about it is that I find myself with very litte time left over and as much as I love web site design and marketing, I am starting to think maybe it isn’t the best use of my extra time. I find myself procrastinating the work on the sites I have and I don’t want to frustrate people by not doing the updates in a timely fashion. Thing is that all the sites I have right now, are sites I have been donating my time too, so it is free service. I think, “well, what if they were paying me – would I still be procrastinating?” I think I would. I just find myself not wanting to do it anymore. It’s weird, the end of a dream. But, dang – I’ve been trying to get this ball rolling for over 5 years and not much has come of it – maybe it is time to call the end of the dream.I feel bad but don’t want to do a bad job, even if the service is free. I can’t wait to start my new job on Monday.

I love property management and I know I am going to love this job. I don’t think there will be much time for anything else. It’s sad but kind of a relief at the same time. It could be a permenant cessation or possibly something else will come up in the future and breathe new life into it.

Well I have to do the dinner thing. I know this was kind of a ramble, but just thought I had to put into words a hard, sad decision.

It’s been a while. I wonder if I still have any readers? Talk about a topsy-turvy couple of months… simply nuts. So we made the move – sane, intact and still married (there at the end, I wasn’t sure if we were gonna accomplish that last one) but we did. My grandparents had a place all set up for us, separate from the main house which is nice and affords us a great deal of privacy. TJ is here, so now we have three of the five kids and hopefully – if all goes according to plan – Damon and Tyler will be here August 1. That is by far and away the longest time I have ever been away from them and I miss them like crazy.

Within the first seven days of being here Don and I both had jobs – yah us and good paying  jobs at that. On the bummer side of that – he hated his and mine was only a temporary thing for 30 days. So the end of May comes along and my job ends and for  whatever reason, I have been unable to find a secure job to go to. However, in the meantime, Don has been promoted twice at his job and is now the store manager pulling down a very decent salary and much happier at work. Awesome, right? Yes it is. But summer is upon us. Kids are out of school and we have one vehicle. Which means I am here, living with my family, trapped – b/c Don needs the car for work and trying to entertain and control three bored, hot kids. YA fun! I really think all of that will be better when we get our place in four weeks and attain a second car (who knows when?) Until then, I am trying to get my website design and marketing thing off the ground, since it seems that there are just not very many people doing it here and trying to maintain my sanity.

I so enjoy being around my grandparents so much and we got to see my brother for the first time in like 3 years. They live in Dallas so it is a little bit of a drive but definitely something we can do often and we see my parents at least once a week. My kids are beginning to know what it means to have family close by. I am loving it.

I was very surprised to find that I miss Havasu. I thought for sure I would only miss the people, but I miss the town and as much as I love being home, I wish the money would have stayed good there. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret my move. I love being home. I just found I missed another town I called home too. Not enough to even think of moving again, but Havasu, you are missed all the same.

Well, it’s time to clean my little living space and get ready for another day of trying not to tie my children up by their toes. :) The money is good, the opportunities plentiful and the weather awesome. Our bills are getting paid, our children know their families and I am home. And it only gets better from here.

I am just antsy to get on with the next steps of moving into our own place and beginning to make our new life. I’m off to sleep. I’ll blog again soon – sooner than the last time – promise :) Good night.

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